Argument With Self

I am posting an argument I have been having with myself,

not really for public consumption, but just maybe to help me

figure what to do or not.

it regard the 'appropriateness" or 'inappropriateness"

of posting a chapter of Apeshit that i wrote a long time

ago, about events that occurred in 1986 in Italy.

It is a very difficult subject, and is exquisitely

personal. But, memoirs tend to be that way.

Nevertheless, the content of the story is well

unsettling to say the least.

I am Not afraid about pissing off someone else

involved in the memory/incidents, but the

general reader may (wrongly) jump to the

conclusion that what is related is "just too

far out to be real," then dismiss the rest of

the book that is nowhere near THAT weird.

So, one argument is--well you already wrote it

and it helped YOU to purge the scary difficult

memories and WRITE it up.....so you might

as well put it out there.

The other counter argument is that folks

of limited or conventional knowledge will conclude

that the writer is a nut.

It is always very dangerous to be perceived

as crazy.

It is very dangerous and nearly certainly

leads to persecution, even torture.

So, you see why this particular episode of my

life that occurred in Italy one night, might

be a hard thing to consider really putting

into print.

Yet, a recent movie was made about the

very same subject matter,

which was very accurate,

and maybe THAT indicates that the

general public COULD accept reading

such a thing. (?)

the movie I refer to is, the new

Milla Jovovich film

"The Fourth Kind."

I plan to put up a review of that,

likely on my other website,

News, Rants, Reviews, Etc.

Unsure what to do about the

Padua chapter.

Will meditate more on it...

he says as the flame on the candle

grows to three times its

previous size and height.